Monday, September 29, 2008

The Amenities.

"I would rather go on living this life knowing I will
reach eternity in heaven with my father, than live
a life here with all the amenities."

If you're eye causes you to sin, pluck it out.
If you're hand causes you to sin, cut it off.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Steeple Chased Needle.

I killed the dreams
of a loved one it seems
I would kill to mend
the two together again
Like a needle in an arm
I pulled the plug to disembark
Letting memories haunt
me in my dreams

But could I have cared more
Should I have dared more
For the sake of loving you
My heart knows the beating
This is God's way of treating
A young girls soul and its wound
I should have been more careful with you.

Hammering home
all the good ones we know
Searching for just
one piece from your room
You count for more
than my years can count for
You must know what
I've gotten into

But could I have cared more
Should I have dared more
For the sake of loving you
My heart knows the beating
This is God's way of treating
A young girls soul and its wound
I will have to be more careful with you.

The calendar year, hangs amidst the veneer
With your sunglasses that don't fit your face
I failed to appear, where you seemed to have steered
Now your mirror is held on by tape
She was special, and my biggest mistake
The mistake was letting go, I could wait

But could I have cared more
Should I have dared more
For the sake of loving you
My heart knows the beating
This is God's way of treating
A young girls soul and its wound
I should have been more careful with you.

Monday, September 22, 2008

My Mind Is Better Off A Part From Yours.

But it will stay that way.

The weight of a burden like this can only exist
Inside one mind, a part from yours, pain will persist.
My songs can't keep company the way that you did.
I am punished by my own words, for the poor selfishness.
The world is your empire, my minds eye sees you free.
Ruling carefully with joy, still hoping the best for me.
The past's present failure of a man's slow demise.
Losing one queen he swore to keep near in time.
Time, my deluge, you are the habit of the.
I cannot speak freely, though it is your counsel I seek.
Memoirs serve correctly, the rebuttal of my means
My means for your safety, and your heart I'd retrieve.
It is death of a salesman, it is I standing by.
I seemed to have sold you, but got lost in my lies.
It is heresy I do call, for my reckoning I swear.
Though the love in the deep, will carry me to despair.
My dynamo of sorrow, you deserve much much more.
Than a man and his aching, I would only burden you sore.
Mounts of truth they will save me, as they have presently.
My word turned into daggers, as they cut viciously.
I do warn whom I pity, for an alleged remark.
Believed to be the razor, I sank deep into your heart.
It is I who am fooled, it is I in despair.
For believing in justice, in a city that's rare.
Still my screen shows me days, that are better than ones here.
With those, my heart lingers, upon the day that you are near.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Irregular Citing.

I am currently waging war with the mind
and befriending it at the same time.
Spiritually, I am in a season of what some
would be considered a drought; self-produced
but a drought nonetheless.

My apathy and displaced searching has led
me to the point that I have reached today.
I can honestly say, my desire to seek and be
with God has not gone away, however many
obstacles have come about that I allow to
catch my attention long enough which enables
me to forget.

Well, let the war begin.
The first article comes from John Wesley
and it's about self-motivation.
"The mind distorts reality to confirm what it wants to believe. The more negatively you think, the more examples your mind will discover to confirm that belief. When you truly believe that you deserve success, your mind will generate ways to achieve it. The best way to bring success to yourself is to genuinely desire to create value for the rest of the world."

And though it may be off topic, I've always found
business models to be a way of personal growth
for myself. This second article, though rather
lengthy is still a GREAT read, and it pretty much
sums up what I believe. I attribute much of my
fear to my family somewhat, and it's not that they
don't believe in me or openly are out to destroy
my ideas or dreams. I'll tell you, rather I believe
it's their inability to integrate my thinking with
theirs; some may call this the lack of being

An example being, I personally don't have much
of what it takes to stomach anything that would
be labeled cheesy, unprofessional, cheap, etc.
When I make these points public, it's like I'm crucified
because "there's nothing wrong with that..." and let
the comments begin. I never said there was anything
wrong with it, I just happen to think there is an
alternative that is better; what's so wrong with that?
I believe we are to be great, and if it's not great, then
you're either learning or you settled.

So, this is where my thinking comes into play I
suppose. It creates this invisible boundary for me
because, someone else just doesn't have the
willingness to understand my ideal though I bow
to their necessity of thinking the "well they tried"
mentality is justifiable.
"Velocity is your ability to zig and zag and zoom -- to make significant changes when significant changes are necessary. And you can have velocity without speed: Driving around in circles may make your speedometer look impressive, but it won't get you across the country very fast."

Last but not least, a wonderful speech at the
2005 Stanford Commencement from
Founder and CEO of Apple, Steve Jobs.
One of my modern day heroes.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Favorite Things at the Moment.

- John Mayer "Where The Light Is" DVD
- Underoath "Lost In The Sound of Separation"
* including the making of DVD
- Twitter
- Zaxby's *Kickin' Chicken Sandwich* Oh I will miss you
- Woodworking and Renovation
- Spending time with Jordyn
- Getting ready to move (not really)
* but I am looking forward to it
- NOT T-mobile
- Sectional Couches
- SimulAnalog Guitar Suite
- Blogging. As you can see.
- Blues licks on the guitar
- Finding my monitor iso pads
- Fixing my monitor woofer's dustcap after a
little fella decided to press it in.
- Not having a job (again, not really)
- Looking for a house to rent
- I.C.R. DVD "How To Read and Interpret The Bible"
- Handbrake
- Amp Searching
- Looking for a Van/Bus and Trailer
- Planning our photo and video shoots
- Wikipedia

Friday, September 5, 2008

Our Deepest Fear.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

It's not a fickle encounter of an imaginative spirit or mind
that draws me to the places I want to go, to be around
the people I most cherish, or the things that enjoy my
company almost as much I enjoy them. Rather, the life
breathed into me when I was created, it's who I am; it's
just, in me. My mind is what will either get me there, or
stop me from even going. Often times I theorize things
and one that I've come to believe as hypothesized truth
is that, our imagination and our mind can be so distant
from one another at times. Often, our imagination
creates wonderful scenarios of things that we believe
in and want to do so badly.

Our mind, has a tendency to rationalize and kill our
imagination, as if to slap it on the wrist like a mother
would and say, "you should know better by now, you
can't do that. You'll hurt yourself, and I know it seems
fun and exciting, but you have to be realistic."

My word to the mind is just like a child's reassuring
words to her, "everything will be fine, but
more than anything, I need you to believe in me
and support me along the way; not try and kill my
dream. Dream with me, with you in this with me
it only makes me stronger."

God, I ask that our hearts be pure when we come
before you. I pray that we as a church, and as people
would continue to dream, and not let our minds
suppress the amazing possibilities that you have
placed in us. I pray that we would focus on you and
you alone, in doing so, I ask that you would
manifest and work through us to make our dreams
a reality, and to make your name famous.
You are God, and you are good Father. If we could
only be more like Jesus, how beautiful this world
would be. I thank you, for all that you do and all
that you are going to do.

Let us reach a world of people that desperately
needs God. Turn your deepest fear, into the longing
of something very real, and act.