I've Become An Adjective.

1. like or characteristic of a cynic; distrusting or disparaging the motives of others.
2. showing contempt for accepted standards of honesty or morality by one's actions, esp. by actions that exploit the scruples of others.
3. bitterly or sneeringly distrustful, contemptuous, or pessimistic.

Jake and I were sitting in my room a couple of nights ago, and I'll preface by saying that it's not often these days that I have much thought-provoking conversation so this was a very refreshing littlerarity. Ok, so we were just talking about things and I expressed to him where I was and my feelings on faith and we delved into a wonderful talk that mostly involved him bringing a lot of things to my attention in a simple conversative way. He read some scripture to me, some from Hebrews, a little from James, some Romans and so on. It was then I realized that we were in worship, we were in fellowship and he communicated to me so eloquently to just, "keep going."

Again, it was not groundbreaking or oversatturated intelligence, it was just simple. We talked about love, and he and I both agreed that when you are in a relationship sometimes you have to do things you don't want to, but you still do 'em. I can't completely say with all bit of truth that I don't want to read my bible, I actually do, so why do I not often than to just read it? And why do I do things that I truly don't want to or even enjoy anymore, rather than doing things that are productive, can help me grow and gain wisdom, and actually have some positive benefits to them?

All this to say, is I have a beautiful life, filled with many wonderful people. I have the utmost respect for my friend Jake, he is a good man who truly wants the best for the people around him and I admire his standards. Jake is a brother, whom I respect and look up to. If it weren't for him and everything he had to say, I may not have so easily decided to just, "keep going."

Hebrews 10 -
26If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, 27but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God.