Failure Is A Verb. Or Lack thereof.

Passive detaching has caused her to sway
Her arms are held out but for no one to stay
Rooms have held pity not like this before
Her suffering has caused great weight to the floor
Wood planks split melodiously in rhythm with hearts
The hearts that beat on while hers refuses to start
Characters drawn from the seeds they all sowed
While failure breathes heavy, she's carried life's load.

Don't you stop, I've got all life to spare.
I bore it with planks to my back rome made bare.
My lights can be seen from the lives I've assigned.
My dear, failure's a verb, or a flaw in design.

Lost Continents Inside Blankets

If I weren't a kid I would play all day long
I'd run in the streets like my parents denied
If I was old and grown I would chalk streets for kings
Past dark cus my friends always could but I'd leave
Ya if I weren't a kid, I would do all these things
I would show them they're wrong, wrong about everything

I would stop building tents, and explore continents
And I wouldn't go to bed before ten
Oh if I weren't a kid, I would open the eyes
Of all the non believers and show them I tried

But please just let me, let me live.
I wanna go away for a day and be a kid.
I wanna scream when I should whisper
And get caught in the thistles
Without my mother demanding I behave
But ya see, my dear boy, it's too late

I'll get lost in romances
Start taking chances
Believe in the unbelievable
My brittle bones couldn't stop me
From being unordinary

Love Never Can Just Be Love.

I'm spent, in this restless love like a dictatorship.
Qualms seem necessary to the human existence.
Passing through seems never enough.
And love never can just be love.

When did love turn into cryin?
I thought love meant always tryin.
If we wake up and decide to try.
Could it keep the tears from falling out your eyes?

If love were like a song.
We'd just give and take away.
Something would be better.
Perhaps if we both sang.

The Church. Faith. It's Time.

For the last few years, I've been stirred in my heart about the "church." Are we like Jesus? Are we biblical? Do we interpret it at all? Or do we just read for what it is? Are we even being taught what is right, what Jesus would be teaching us? These are questions that have followed me for years now, and there are answers.

I am far from perfect; I am far from what would be considered Godly. And I've longed so much to be like Jesus, but "so much" isn't near enough. It's an interesting thing, to examine yourself and realize you don't truly belong to God. Yes, I am his child, but does he know me? If I stood before him, would he know my name? Would I reside in heaven with him for all of eternity?

Am I following him? Or am I fulfilling selfish desire after another and using grace as a ploy. We aren't teaching what's right! And we have so many christians fooled in America! This isn't right, what's going on? More people that are in church, that claim to be believers, don't even know what they believe! The church is so shallow and we are OK with it. Why? Why should we be complacent with ungodliness? We are a travesty of a church, and there must be a renewing of truth or else I'm afraid many many people that think they are heaven-bound and Jesus like, will find themselves before the throne of God and only then realizing that in fact, they never walked the narrow path.
My goal is not to bash the church, but to revive it. Burt first, God knows, I must be revived.

I have been dead for far too long now, and I have dragged too many down with me. In my selfish ambition I have disguised myself as someone who loves Jesus, rather, I am someone who loves to talk as if he truly knows Jesus. I can't say exactly why, but I can only assume it's because I wanted to believe that I did. So, do I blame the church?

Truthfully, yes I believe it has something to do with it.
So what then, what are we today?

Seek Jesus, Seek Holiness, Be truly Set A Part. Quit using grace as a crutch, chances are God's grace ran out miles ago. He bore it once and he will never bear it again. The weight of sin for the entire world was upon his shoulders! Why in the world would he gather more?

It's time, to truly be like Jesus and act as the church Jesus created us to be. To quit listening to selfish ambition and endeavor, humble ourselves, and follow God. No matter the cost!
For thine is the Kingdom, and The Power, and The Glory, forever and ever, AMEN!

The American Dream.

The American Dream is starting to really irritate me. Now, I'm really not talking about success or doing everything we can to achieve certain goals. Think of it more as a metaphor, and more so along the lines of materialism. Maybe I'm just being unreasonable, but I think it's ridiculous to live being aware of the situations going on around the world , the injustices throughout, and responding with a deaf ear and a blind eye.

Especially as Christians, how ashamed we should feel to be so ignorant and careless about this. I know there are MANY MANY organizations focusing on these very things, also to educate and raise awareness about these things. But do we really need to be more aware? Or do we just need to take action? I'm disappointed in myself even to think of the apathy I've displayed towards these things I'm speaking of. These are God's children facing persecution, torture, blackmail, pain, slavery, broken families, and the list goes on.

Why are we not doing more? Why aren't we sacrificing more? Why have I done nothing for just one person? One beautiful soul that my God loves like a mother loves her child, that my God died for. I'm no better than them though I'm blessed, and what for? I believe we are blessed to bless others, but beyond blessing this is our duty. Right now, thousands of people are homeless, hurting, being mistreated, being used, being beaten, and dying; millions even! Are we not the hands and feet of Jesus? Then my God let's be them! Sometimes we need to leave the security, the freedom, and the comfortable lives we live to really see what other people are going through to fully realize how great of a need there is.

This irks me, it takes me back to materialism. Honestly, I have no intention of making anyone feel bad for having things or wanting things, but do we really NEED it all? I believe materialism to be the equivalent of sin, because in my eyes it shows a blatant disregard life; for other lives who could be benefiting from what I'm squandering away on something I don't need. I don't need more shoes, shirts, a new car, fast food... whatever it may be. It's our duty to love and care for people who are less fortunate than us, I guess what I'm trying to say is, do your part. So, do your part Aaron.

We Sang All Night

Could it be that I dont like hearin you sing
You carefully, precisely, have mistaken me for everything
You wanted
Life it seems to hand you material dreams
But your heart knew all along the melodies
So you'd sing and I grew to love it

You'd persuade me, to sing along in key
I'd be lost but you'd keep singin on, just to sing
The notes would come by ear and they all listened and they'd cheer
We finally found it, now let's sound it out

We sang all night and we never missed a tune
We all got everyone from me to you
We had it all figured out so then we sang along

I say...

"I say the future needs artists who are called to the church who love the church and who are in churches who know how to love and lead them."

I say, we appreciate people in the church that give their time to serve, and stop treating them like it's their obligation; as if, life and limb are on the line. Jesus was a man of grace, and I know that volunteering/serving in the church is a commitment, but don't you think that showing how much you appreciate them rather than chastising them and ruling over them with an iron fist would benefit not only you but your services and proactivity?

It does not create an enviroment that can be enjoyed, or spirit-filled. The heart of a servant is something to be sought after, yes you may be getting paid to "minister" in your church, but that does not give you the right to rule rather than to serve. To lead is literally defined "to go before or with to show the way; conduct or escort." We are to be like Jesus, it is the very root of what a christian is, and we should humble ourselves enough to show grace to those who make mistakes, or may seem unwilling at times.

YOU are to SERVE, a paycheck doesn't change that; and no title can change that. MATTHEW says "34 O generation of vipers, how can ye, being evil, speak good things? for out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh"

No longer should we use our tounges as a sword, rather, be like Jesus and let the abundance of our heart speak grace and love. A man can have many things, faith, wisdom, obedience; but if a man does not love, he has nothing.

- Most Sincerely