Devotion.

The weight of separation from God is unbearable to me.
What separates me from him? Sin. For almost all my life
I've second guessed myself, only to wake up today realizing
that that's exactly why God is using me! He uses the weak
to shame the strong! I am just that, I am not perfect.
I never will be, but what I will be is sanctified by Christ
day in and day out as I seek him.

So let us stop doubting ourselves, because what our hearts
are crying is, "God, I do not trust you. I can only do this
if I'm better, or if I could just be a better christian."
There is no such thing as a "better christian," but there
is such a thing as devotion. Trust him, in John 14:13 Jesus
says, "Whatever you ask in My name, that will I do, so that
the Father may be glorified in the Son." He is using us to
make him glorious, as if he needs us but he has chosen us.

Just like the gift of grace is a gift that we cannot earn,
so is this beautiful life he's chosen to use us in. Our
Creator chose us, and he knows that we are not perfect. The
big but here is, SEEK HIM. Be strengthened in the grace that
is in Jesus Christ, as Paul says. So this is it, today let's
begin to trust God the way were intended, with everything.

"I Am Living Vol. 1"

Whether you’ve been following our steps over the last few months or you just happened upon this site, welcome! This web launch marks our somewhat official/unofficial launch, as we are finally able to begin doing one of the things that we’ve felt God place on our hearts: offering music as a 100% free, no-strings-attached, GIFT. It’s one of the smaller ways we can spell “LOVE”.

The Burden.

I am the wolf
That's out for my prey
As sure as I'm cunning
A lamb will be slain
My fixture is men, I intend to devour them all
They are weak and they are small
And they answer when I call

Through all I have
In the palm of mine
The yeast will rise
In the bread of life
It's every little thing
It's a life of suffering
The burden of all
Is I was made to fall

I am the burden
of all the world
But their ignorant hearts just don't know
I am the master
They are the givers
I am the captor of souls

Burn them, down to the ground
Take no prisoners
If I can't win then I'll call them to sin
Surely I will own their hearts

A Call To Anguish.

This stirred me to say the very least. The conviction of my wasted
hours now has feet and I will walk on them. What are we doing to
serve? Who are we rescuing, reaching, and loving? I ask myself
these things everyday, and I cannot picture myself doing enough.
I am not innocent, this is a matter of anguish of its own.
Let this excerpt speak to you, I pray it does as it did me.

Maintenance.

It is a pursuit beyond maintaining that I desire to have, to truly know my Jesus than to know of him. I am hard on myself with this, and I think that is because in my heart I almost always hold back; be it fear, apathy, or just being ashamed. This is certainly not a benchmark to which I wish to remain, Id prefer it disappear. It has been my prayer that the holy spirit manifest a heart of faith, trust and pure belief that our God can truly do anything and he has given us the power to do so as well. I pray judgement would fall from our lips and replaced with christ's embrace. As I delve deeper into "Celebration of Discipline" Ive started to realize that all these years Ive relied on my self and not God's grace. This has created a sense of unhealthy control that Id felt obligated to have, but to have his grace and understand it frees me of this burden. This is the pursuit, and at the very least I know it's there. The maintenance of a relationship should never overshadow the pursuit of the one you love. To maintain is to expire, but to pursue is true desire.

I'm not here at the moment.

It's been quite a while. I've not only not been home in over a month, but I rarely have internet access on the road which makes for sparce updating. The tours have been great, recording for Sons in North Carolina with Drew was great, the festivals have been incredible, and I am on the eve of my 23rd birthday. Its crazy where life takes us, a year ago the last thing I'd expect for myself is to be on the road yet here I am. Im grateful for God providing in a way where I am able to connect with people and I pray that it would continue through with Sons far beyond what I can imagine. I wanted to update from the road, hopefully I'll have some time while home to expand on the last few weeks. Until then... seek Jesus relentlessly.

Not My Will But Yours.

John Piper has a way about bringing the truth in a way
that hurts but helps at times. It hurts to know that we
embrace this lifestyle, but it helps to be
reminded of how terrible it is.
To clarify, I mean "terrible" that it is true that we live
just as Piper describes.
Not to Be Served But to Serve (Mark 10:45)